Forget winning five grams – when Billy ellish She was small, all she wanted could be included in one name: Justin Bieber.
“When I was, like, 12 … that was like my first love,” the 19th-century “Everything I Wanted” singer, now says during a radio interview Apple is premiering on TV + on Friday.
In fact, Eilish was once so much fascinated with Bieber that his mother thought it appropriate to take him to therapy to deal with his destiny.
“I really remember me soaking in a pillow because I thought, ‘I’m not going to feel that way about anybody [else], The 26-year-old “holy” crooner says. “I was really nervous that when I was a boyfriend when I was older that … that wouldn’t compare.”
Later, the most moving part of the documentary comes when Elish actually meets Bieber in Coachella in 2019, after collaborating on a remix of his mega-hit “Bad Guy”. When they fall into the longest, biggest hug and she cries over her shoulder, it is clear that that moment could mean more to the Illish than to any Grammy.
This helps explain why Eilish now has such a special relationship with her own fans. “I never think of them as fans,” she says. “They are not my fans – they are, like, a part of me.”
A big part of that too? His family. Mom Maggie taught Ilish how to write songs; Her father, Tom, schooled her on piano and guitar. And her parents – along with older brother Finnes – supported her on the talent show as a young child growing up in Los Angeles.
“Our family was just a big f king song,” Illish says. “And I still make music in my brother’s bedroom.”
Eilish’s debut album, “When We All Fall So, We Do Go ?,” from 2019, goes inside with “The World’s A Little Blurry”. . The two siblings have a spontaneous, symbiotic creative process built on their tight bond. When he is the architect behind his mood, it seems the other way – he also won a Producer of the Year Grammy for his efforts – it is clear that he still has his own vision, even to a point But also to direct all their own videos.
This comes as a surprise, however, when Finless revealed that “Billy hates writing songs in general.” And her sister said: “Every time I’ve written a song that I really like, I hate the process,” she says. “It tortures me.”
To the darkness of his song, Illish tells an interviewer, “People are always like, you know, ‘It’s so dark. Like, happy music.’ I like, ‘Well, I’m never happy.” So why should I write about things that I don’t know about? ‘ I feel dark things. “
Towards the end of the film, she reveals how deep things have been found for her. “To be honest with you, I didn’t think I’d make it at this age,” says Illish, who struggled with depression after a serious hip injury, saw him from dancing at age 13 slap down. “15. I had razors to hide everywhere, and I had a band-aid hidden in a small corner of my room. And I always kept a band-aid on my wrist. I literally locked myself in the bathroom Was doing and bleeding myself because I felt I deserved it. ”
“The World’s A Little Blurry” also reveals Illish’s relationship with old actor Brandon “Q” Adams, which ended in 2019.
But Bieber still has his heart.
The Doctor is receiving a congratulatory FaceTime from “First Love” after her big Grammy sweep in 2020.
“I can’t believe it – it’s crazy,” he says through giggles before ending the call with “I Love You”.