Lala Kent is getting real about her breakup with fiancé Randall Emmett.
“This whole experience has been traumatizing and it haunts me daily,” the “Vanderpump Rules” star, 31, revealed in a preview of Melissa Gorga’s new PodcastOne show, “Melissa Gorga on Display,” obtained by E! News.
Kent explained her bewilderment over “just how I could feel so safe with someone and to have a conversation about starting a family.”
She added, “And him making me feel safe enough to bring this beautiful innocent life into the world is hard. It haunts me — like I said — daily.”
The Give Them Lala Beauty founder said her 9-month-old daughter with Emmett, Ocean, has helped her pull through this difficult time.
“I wonder often where I’m getting strength from, and obviously I see my daughter and I know exactly where my strength is coming from,” she said.
Kent called off her engagement in October after the movie producer allegedly cheated on her.
“Randall always lives a double life,” a source previously told Page Six. “He lives the life of a husband or boyfriend, and then he lives the life of a serial partier and then goes on a bender.”
At the time, videos and pictures of what appeared to be Emmett, 50, in Nashville with two women had recently spread on Instagram and Twitter.
Kent also shared a video of two friends helping her move into a hotel and had Beyoncé’s “Sorry” playing in the background with the lyrics, “Now you want to say you’re sorry / Now you want to call me crying / Now you gotta see me wilding / Now I’m the one that’s lying / And I don’t feel bad about it / It’s exactly what you get.”
Since then, the reality star has shaded her ex on social media, sharing a post about “narcissists” on her Instagram and most recently calling her engagement ring “fake.”
Kent said on her “Give Them Lala” podcast on Wednesday that her ring originally had a “s–t brown” diamond.
She also said she finds out new information “daily” about the producer’s alleged secrets that are “a punch in the gut.”